3ve's wor1d

I haven't been making a wholllleee lot of music recently, just smashing out beats and not really finishing them, next project has kind of stagnated too. I've got the beats I want for it, but I do actually want to put lyrics to them, and have no idea where to start, on top of the fact I mix like total garbage (⁠๑⁠¯w¯⁠;;;๑⁠). Songwriting, like...honest to god songwriting, is wicked crazy hard as I'm learning, but I also don't know if I'm making it harder that it needs be, I have people and other things than can always help me with it but the whole process and even thinking about it is slowly burning through me, but I'll make it work I guess? One thing I'd say I want to work on is both getting ideas out and being able to finish those ideas, I'm not sure how to explain that without making my own head swim even though it's my own thought, but there is a proposed beginning and end to that problem and it's just up to us both to figure out the middle I s...

If not already starting as such, I get weird easily, sideways, if you will. In turn I beat it out of me with a lot of emo music, which I've only come into recently as of about 2024-25 in the later and middle parts of those years respectively. While seeming disjointed, I've made mention of how I feel as if I listen to whatever is thrown at me, sometimes it'll take awhile to stick as well, but once I have a grasp on a sound I like I typically don't deviate from it. Such is the case with how I even got into listening to it, Fall Out Boy. Revered as one of their WORST albums, I started what I consider to be a landmark in my music career on Folie à Deux which holds great significance in my life now (and I can't even get it on CD without paying +$30 (–⁠‸—)) since it's all I could stomach listening to around April, and yet I have no idea why. It's one giant art project that in retrospect I can't see how it failed, consider A Fever You Cant Sweat Out came out in...

I have work soon so I'm not very happy about that but who cares, i need one of these done!!! I've been feeling very...off... probably because I got my e dose upped after about a week and a half off them because I don't know how prescriptions work! Thanksgiving happened, dgaf, colonizers holiday (US as a whole has more good in it than the entire east coasts history but I'm not picky ┐⁠(⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠)⁠┌) but the eats were good! I bought myself a $25 first gen FD snap together to keep myself preoccupied and to reign in my mind from wherever it tries to haul me off to (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠). Everyone say thank you Aoshima for helping me remember I was gonna write one of these!!! Other than that, there's generally nothing to report! I've been studying how to make flips that sound good, which means listening to a lot of old D2LTA and Gingus. The goal of these is to listen to how I'm supposed to properly mash multiple vocals together, as well as figure out how I want...

Nothing to report on artistically I suppose (⁠￣w⁠￣⁠), although if I were the guestimating type (which I'm abhorrent at when it comes to music releases as you may know!!!) I would say I'm about 60% done with the new EP. And guess what, you just listened to and believed me (⁠ ⁠╹u⁠╹⁠ ⁠). Now then, SHOWTIME!!!!!!!! I finally have the opportunity to go see Cherry Pit ( who's album you WILL listen to  ಠ⁠ω⁠ಠ) live and I've never been more excited and terrified at the same time!!! I have no idea what scene I'm getting myself into!!! But I survived barricade at a Nettspend show so how much worse can it get from there!!! (⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠) But on the other hand I do worry about that a little bit, the part of being out of my element. It's a natural concern for going to a show of this caliber and venue, it's nothing like anything I've been to before and I don't know what to expect from other people or how to receive the environment per se (is that how you use that I can ...