I'm gonna keep writing
I haven't been making a wholllleee lot of music recently, just smashing out beats and not really finishing them, next project has kind of stagnated too. I've got the beats I want for it, but I do actually want to put lyrics to them, and have no idea where to start, on top of the fact I mix like total garbage (๑¯w¯;;;๑). Songwriting, like...honest to god songwriting, is wicked crazy hard as I'm learning, but I also don't know if I'm making it harder that it needs be, I have people and other things than can always help me with it but the whole process and even thinking about it is slowly burning through me, but I'll make it work I guess? One thing I'd say I want to work on is both getting ideas out and being able to finish those ideas, I'm not sure how to explain that without making my own head swim even though it's my own thought, but there is a proposed beginning and end to that problem and it's just up to us both to figure out the middle I suppose. I don't want to talk about a lot of boring sappy bullshit, nobody reads it and there's plenty of it coming from others, I'm not worth it, but I dont know, stuffs been a little weird stepping back and watching my whole team run their shit like the navy and I'm just putting out a handful of snips. Ive really been at this for six years now that's insane to me, but I've gone at learning it alone and it's just left a weird pit in me whenever I mention it (BUT THATS WHY I FILL MY SHIT OUT IN MY DRUMSSSS ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ). But yeah in all reality I've really just felt alone making all my shit, also I really have no way to bounce ideas off people cuz nobody I still talk to either way makes the same stuff I do, I've moreso dipped into THEIR genres as I meet new ppl and kinda see what I can work out (• ▽ •;), not a complaint, it's a good workout!
Although along with the secluded nature of my work process it's been oddly easy to keep my head clear to nail sounds and feelings I want out of songs. For the most part, all my melodic & semi-ambient stuff I work on thoroughly has come easily and incredibly quick, as it's typically something made on the spot out of pure thought. In that case, most every one of those songs take a week to make, the openers for my last 2 projects I think we're completely fleshed out in one night, cleaned up and re-molded in 2 days, mixed in one, and final rework & mixed in 1-3 days and not even in a huge amount of time each day. Some of the best advice I did get though, was simply: "if your favorite artists mix loud, mix loud, if they mix quiet, mix quiet" which is when I just stopped caring NEAR as much about Mastering and just started posting final mixes, I don't know how it's done, and FL added a tool for it anyway...I think. This whole account has just been an outlet for me really, I do take this stuff seriously and I know if I don't wanna kill for placements it's over there but I'm really kinda fine with that. In reality I always kind of come back to remembering that all I've ever cared about is people noticing that my sound evolved and sounded awesome and decently professional, I met almost every one of my producer friends in the wild just by having my stuff kind of played around them and them being like "hey your stuff rocks, we should work sometime", then we do, and I kinda just don't do shit with it.
None of this helps my case, didn't need it to really, again I don't really care, however I do really wish someone would tell me if I'm doing plugg & stuff right (because out of everything I write, I've been flying blind on plugg since I started writing it! (;´∩`;) ). Although if I could add my two cents worth, it's been a really damn raw learning process because of it. I have no one at fucking all to stand with on my number one genre, LITERALLY what you guys know me for. Everything I've put out in the genre and vein has been completely by ear, about 5 years of learning and teaching myself to numb down drums because my mels are boring as shit and they overpower it, vice versa (rarely, working on my piano CONSTANTLY (``;``•﹏•``) ), writing transitions that fit into the song and their timings, and generally knowing what to use and how to fill out stuff like it. All this and more just repeatedly listening to new and old, mostly newer style, despite being much more sound layered to drive emotion, which is why it's stuck with me, I've always loved the thrashed drums though, something rap styles have always gotten right for me, and why whenever I start writing them I hit drums first!
I got this printed out it's on the ceiling
