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pinching myself, believing in other peoples dreams

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If not already starting as such, I get weird easily, sideways, if you will. In turn I beat it out of me with a lot of emo music, which I've only come into recently as of about 2024-25 in the later and middle parts of those years respectively. While seeming disjointed, I've made mention of how I feel as if I listen to whatever is thrown at me, sometimes it'll take awhile to stick as well, but once I have a grasp on a sound I like I typically don't deviate from it. Such is the case with how I even got into listening to it, Fall Out Boy. Revered as one of their WORST albums, I started what I consider to be a landmark in my music career on Folie à Deux which holds great significance in my life now (and I can't even get it on CD without paying +$30 (–⁠‸—)) since it's all I could stomach listening to around April, and yet I have no idea why. It's one giant art project that in retrospect I can't see how it failed, consider A Fever You Cant Sweat Out came out in...

For days, 4...days‽

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An unseen photo from the hike I took, on the route I generally take, been wanting to capture this exact photo in this exact style and framing for almost 2 years now. Part of the reason I went out was because I'm pretty stuck this time around. I usually do the same loop either way, given winter, spring, summer etc. but each time it's different as time rolls on and more people come through and thrash the area around so it always looks different. Typically if ever I'm looking for inspiration with almost anything I can find it on this hike around, but this time was different because I already knew for a few days prior what I wanted to get started on. I chopped a lot of samples and got some loops from stock Windows programs on an old laptop and have been working on those plus a few more plugg beats, sstep team stuff, one or two flips and something I'm new to which is wheel housing Elxnce type beats. Regardless those are generally unimportant, except for the Elxnc...

Moeshit? VA born and raised since 03 baby!!!

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I got really mad at Twitter today which is something nobody should ever do and I would never wish it upon my enemies. FIRST! The last thing I want is for the thumbnail of this to be a twitter post and idk how to fix that on my phone. So have this thing that I found like 7 years ago before I ever understood it. Which is why I'm writing today! SECONDLY! I know a bait post when I see one. But I've needed to blow the dust off my largely hollowed brain and I thought thisd be a good exercise to stretch my memory and media depth! (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠) In that case I'm gonna bombard you with a bunch of images, currently listening to "Walk Right Back" by XTM & Eva Marti in case you were wondering! (You weren't but IDC it's good (⁠ ̄⁠ヘ⁠ ̄⁠)) I got blasted by this on my TL today, now let's break it down! At face value there's nothing wrong, but being able to read into the whims of others as a former NEET I was already tipped off at "As...

"a stitch away from making it, and a scar away from falling apart"

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I have work soon so I'm not very happy about that but who cares, i need one of these done!!! I've been feeling very...off... probably because I got my e dose upped after about a week and a half off them because I don't know how prescriptions work! Thanksgiving happened, dgaf, colonizers holiday (US as a whole has more good in it than the entire east coasts history but I'm not picky ┐⁠(⁠ ̄⁠ヘ⁠ ̄⁠)⁠┌) but the eats were good! I bought myself a $25 first gen FD snap together to keep myself preoccupied and to reign in my mind from wherever it tries to haul me off to (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠). Everyone say thank you Aoshima for helping me remember I was gonna write one of these!!! Other than that, there's generally nothing to report! I've been studying how to make flips that sound good, which means listening to a lot of old D2LTA and Gingus. The goal of these is to listen to how I'm supposed to properly mash multiple vocals together, as well as figure out how I want...

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Wednesday? November 19th? ITS BEEN A MONTH? maybe this will level me out, I have never felt more frantic mentally in my entire life and I can't really pinpoint why! EP is done by now, I'll probably end up mixing it more and adding like 1-2 sounds to each somewhere but as far as it goes im happy with it and am feeling much better since it's completion. Time between now and a month plus ago feels way longer than it should be, so I'll pick up posting back here to see if I can get my thoughts down to somewhere I feel is worth it y'know? In that time a bunch has happened, bunch of photos sound okay? I never posted about the tape! I was able to obtain a copy of Anthology 1 off of Discogs (the only one that was available) SEALED for $30 total. Containing "Sugar & Spice" from Evolve, my favorite hardcore song of all time, it was incredibly worth it to own the CD responsible for me making music! The Rayquaza collection got updated as wel...

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Nothing to report on artistically I suppose (⁠ ̄w⁠ ̄⁠), although if I were the guestimating type (which I'm abhorrent at when it comes to music releases as you may know!!!) I would say I'm about 60% done with the new EP. And guess what, you just listened to and believed me (⁠ ⁠╹u⁠╹⁠ ⁠). Now then, SHOWTIME!!!!!!!! I finally have the opportunity to go see Cherry Pit ( who's album you WILL listen to  ಠ⁠ω⁠ಠ) live and I've never been more excited and terrified at the same time!!! I have no idea what scene I'm getting myself into!!! But I survived barricade at a Nettspend show so how much worse can it get from there!!! (⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠) But on the other hand I do worry about that a little bit, the part of being out of my element. It's a natural concern for going to a show of this caliber and venue, it's nothing like anything I've been to before and I don't know what to expect from other people or how to receive the environment per se (is that how you use that I can ...

ladies ladies...one at a time to see the dried & shriveled soul sucked pluggnb producer awaken (totally not on strings) and answer all your questions about Mazda!!!!!

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.......( ̄w⁠ ̄) (⁠´⁠⊙w⊙⁠`⁠) What does that day say? Oh, September 15th? HUHHHHHH WHAT HAPPEHnd (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠) Oh well, some things can't totally be helped, I've been busy after all!  It gets technical and personal but like I mentioned before, IM NOT A TOTAL NEET (likely to some dismay, wait y'all have never seen me what ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠`⁠)⁠┌).  I HAVE THINGS TO DO, CLASSES TO ATTEND AND A JOB TO DO FUCK ALL AT (either get paid to stand around or go though Food Service Hell!!!!) Ive finally found a rhythm to it all though so I've been able to work on some music and art while in between it all, I've also been traveling in and out of Roanoke A LOT recently and I WILL be back throughout this month and next, to no travelers discomfort, I love my hometown and will continue to claim it 1000x over as opposed to the cesspool that is Richmond VA!!! So you're probably waiting on an update, and if I failed to allude to it above, uhhhhhh, there really isn't one?  While yes I have...