this was FOB reference title #3 before I changed it
Sorry it's been a long while since I've actually shared one of these with y'all. But that's partially why I'm writing it, just havent had anything to talk about really (￣ヘ￣;).
For starters, I'm going to be setting myself up with therapy soon, even though my music is wordless and I don't let on easy, if you pay enough attention it's about time and I've needed it. Music hasnt been a catalyst but I haven't been performing at my best because I've been overwhelmed by the emotions and feelings that I put into it, it's made it hard to continue writing it as the reason I write it is giving me a hell of a hard time to continue. There's really nothing more to say there, but for future reference, the music is slowly finding words and names attached to it, so whenever I work myself out I'll buck up and put some stuff down.
While trying to keep myself together I've been going out with friends a lot, generally just taking my camera with and getting whatever I can. I didn't want to make more posts on top of things without reason which is why I'm waiting to finish some pieces to show off and post, while also trying to get another EP going, but for now it's stagnated...hard...and while generally irrelevant it's more important that you know that there is in fact content for you all sitting in the shadows waiting on me to finish it, or others (I've really been wanting to colab again!) I actually ended up re-linking with one of my best friends again who's started to ease herself back into music production alongside story writing, genuinely one of the coolest people I still know, has work for fan games under her belt but on the side can make some crazy Hard & Breakcore, we've tossed around the idea of making a side project but nothing there yet really ┐( ˘_˘)┌.
A large amount of these photos are months old and there's quite a lot that don't make many of my posts, that or it's stuff I've taken photos of in an altered state that's passable as manic ramblings, actually...some of which you've seen but it's whatever. I'm no poet but I think my future healing process and the music subsequent is going to help me find words so I can stop boring you guys with flips. Speaking of those as well, I haven't forgotten them, but from the rest of this post its kind of a given that it's been hard working on them, as every single one is incredibly important to me and has been either in the past or recently. If you want a teaser to the one(s) being workshoped, order as follows:
Ive really got nothing else to talk about, but yeah, I guess just expect things to be slow while I work on keeping myself alive, and thanks for continuing to support me (◔‿◔).
Luckily for you all to hear, I've been trying to force myself to enjoy life outside and away from making music for a little bit to help cleanse myself from the monotony of my plugg stuff and a bunch of other stuff I've had sidelined. But in the advent of having nothing pressing to think about, such as "oh what I'm I gonna write this on? What sounds do I want it to convey?" I've managed to put myself back into a loop of thinking about my past with people.
- Fall Out Boy - Pavlove
- Haywood - Six Stars (beat rework)
- The 1975 - It's Not Living
I got a couple people who asked me why I included "The 1975", to which I will now tell you that you must listen to the entire album that song is from because it's a masterpiece of theming. But as a quick synopsis, the album focuses on addictions and forces you to look into the pits of the psyche that form around human connections and compassion, with both ideas in tandem, and it also looks into taking Internet relationships to a weird degree. I decided to take it on because I've come to realize that I can relate to it more than I initially thought, while being a song about heroin, I realized that I fell in love with the mental atrocities I put myself through for an end result, and after I woke up from a particularly bad high listening to it (I wish I was kidding) I just progressively worked out that the people I see my life in are sort of just instilling it in me in my pursuit of them. I don't want to talk your ears off about it but you should absolutely listen to it, it's a complete genre mash generally sticking around a semi-modern style Europop alley, features some Aphex Twin sounding ideas, but mostly clings to its lyrics.
Oh and Sxnset, I love ur energy bro I'm sorry I waffled on you.
