mildly insane trans girl yells at cloud

The last time I posted to this thing was almost 2 whole weeks ಠಿ⁠_⁠ಠಿ...

I just wanna start by saying I'm sorry if I've been weird lol, I had a bit of an ego break over the PC (which small TL:DR, is a crucial part of my life) and not being able to fix it within my means.  On the bright side, I took the time to truly free myself of my entire life and take a much needed cleanse hike, got in touch with myself much better than initially, and played so much Luigi's Mansion Dark Moon it's intoxicatingly amusing how much progress I made on my 4th playthrough.

Coming back I was ready to go the distances to get things put back together, so about 2 days ago I fired up the disk reader and ended up blowing away all 2 HDD'S to fully destroy the root of my issues.  While it saddens me that everything I've worked for over the past 4 years is gone, it's already quite evident to me that I have a new and fresh start, it's what I've wanted, and I'm gonna take it.  First things first, Chrome went on out of the gate, Secondly FL, and out of literally everything that was on my PC before, VLC Media Player came 3rd.  I missed watching my movies on a personal scale so very much, and I'm glad this drive presented itself, because it also helped me discover a new issue in my system!  My audio output has become unstable and choppy, it's workable and stable through an ASIO which is all I need for FL Studio but otherwise that's not something I can run through 24/7, I've already gone about diagnosing, and I'm slowly thinking it's actually Hardware this time!

Either way I can't stay depressed over this now, I've literally resurrected part of my life force back better than ever before!  Sure I was going to remaster and retweak some SoundCloud projects for the new EP, but that would've taken mind numbing work trying to rewrite stuff I'd already put together, not to mention License refreshing (in the end days of V1, my FL snapped and I had to redownload keys) for a version that was still running on residual cracked firewalls.  I don't know if I'll put back together my walls of FL plugin's ever again, seeing as how I just recently put out my first project back made entirely on stock plugin's, FLEX Packs and soundfonts, handwritten, no loops, par for the course as always.  Finishing that up after an almost 5 hour straight work session, I ate a bowl of reheated just-hot-enough-the-rice-isnt-a-brick Chicken & Rice and drank like 4 glasses of water and almost cried in my kitchen I was so happy that I cranked that out after being gone as long as I was, and feeling so defeated almost a week ago.  While I'm missing almost my entire Flashware, Misc Internet tools, and Mazda media archive, the recollection journey will be just as fun for me as it always has been, I'm just happy to be back (⁠◔⁠‿⁠◔⁠).

Since this one's very short I'll leave you with these,  this is out of the official Mazdaspeed parts Catalog of 1998 for the Mazda MPV LV Generation (1988-97).  Mazda made quite a few Speed kits for cars that really had no purpose having them!  This particular generation of MPV is increasingly rare due to its age and considering it's target market, to find a well kept one today is a feat alone, in my vast research, I have never once seen a Mazdaspeed kitted MPV, let alone one on MS-02 Rays!

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