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nothing to report, pointless train spotting!

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Another thing I tend to not let on about is how much I love the idea of a railroad, always have and always will! I've been out of town recently, and will be for the next few days, so I decided to get some train spotting in while I had good vantages and time to spare (all day (⁠^⁠～⁠^⁠;⁠)⁠ゞ). Spots are as follows: Mostly rolling stock Old Conrail leftover, refurbed by a welding firm 2 iterations of N&W 2-bay Hopper cars, old and slightly-less-old, as well as a pair of almost obsoleted High Top open top Hoppers, which were used for transporting large ammounts of light loose material such as wood chips, usually required special loaders. finally, while quite far away, I got a photo of one of my favorite locomotives, restored by a local rail history chapter, a singular EMD GP30 high hood. Not pictured - 2 EMD SD60E's - 3 stored SD70M-2's - 1 D9-44CW, one of a handful of remaining original 9-44CW units with just a simple power update, create...
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dude fuck singing even though I can lol

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If I ever come back to eat those words I'll make sure to delete this one, but I HIGHLY doubt it (⁠◠⁠‿⁠◕⁠).  I've mentioned before that I CAN in fact sing (and half decently if I do say so myself :P), I just choose not to.  As to why, I believe that I have nothing important to say that hasn't already been said by an artist I draw direct influence from, and while yes you can make the argument of "you're your own person with ideas", I feel like those ideas and efforts are best expressed in my compositions rather than conventionally through words.  My idea is that this leaves the work of understanding my music up to you, meaning you have to actually process what's coming at you tonally to comprehend feeling, instead of trying to dissect wordings, similar to classical music!   (⁠・w⁠・⁠) Probably one of the best examples of a modern artist doing this is Cranes , who aside from producing also writes very stylized, variety filled albums that are designed to let the...
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Fuck you Whygena, you helped me hunt down music I love, wait why would I be mad about that...

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I've been racking my brain quite a bit in the past few days (⁠╯⁠°⁠□⁠°⁠）⁠╯⁠︵⁠ ⁠┻⁠━⁠┻, mostly because of a singular Instagram story my friend posted (which is not at all related to the situation in front of me (⁠ヘ⁠･⁠_⁠･⁠)⁠ヘ⁠┳⁠━⁠┳ ) but moreso about the song being used in it, another Trance classic, reclaimed as downtempo and slightly remixed by some modern age Brazilian DJ.  I have absolutely no issue with the latter, I think it's better that people decided to make stuff like it to spread it around to new and old fans, it's more the fact that I cannot FOR THE LIFE OF ME, TRACK DOWN THE ORIGINAL MIX ( ⁠✧⁠Д⁠✧⁠)!!! When I'm presented with songs I don't know, I will always try to go to as many lengths as physically possible to naturally hunt it down, dissecting any lyrics or physical information I can find about them, before I ever go to Shazam or similar as a last resort.  While I'm at about a 50:50 success rate in this method of searching for my favorite tunes, some...
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Throw back a Monster and think on it

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Hello there, the app broke so all of this is written on the webpage!  Hence why it looks like this and awful! (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠)   To be honest, I think I'm about done producing unless it's just for fun or for people who really want it.  In turn, I have a lot of work ahead of me, but the end goal will be eternally worth it for me. I want to quit producing modern stuff and work on reviving (to the best of my ability of course :P) classic Makina & Hardstyle music.  I've been experimenting with it for awhile since getting into it around about 2023 but haven't felt the drive for it as much as I do now, all of this is thanks to a friends tattoo artist who I really connected with over a tattoo I want even getting! As for what instilled this interest in a revival of sorts, I along with some other people have wanted to return to the roots of what made the classics so good on spiritual and community levels.  So essentially, it's like a nostalgia project, but I wanna ma...
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mildly insane trans girl yells at cloud

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The last time I posted to this thing was almost 2 whole weeks ಠಿ⁠_⁠ಠಿ... I just wanna start by saying I'm sorry if I've been weird lol, I had a bit of an ego break over the PC (which small TL:DR, is a crucial part of my life) and not being able to fix it within my means.  On the bright side, I took the time to truly free myself of my entire life and take a much needed cleanse hike, got in touch with myself much better than initially, and played so much Luigi's Mansion Dark Moon it's intoxicatingly amusing how much progress I made on my 4th playthrough. Coming back I was ready to go the distances to get things put back together, so about 2 days ago I fired up the disk reader and ended up blowing away all 2 HDD'S to fully destroy the root of my issues.  While it saddens me that everything I've worked for over the past 4 years is gone, it's already quite evident to me that I have a new and fresh start, it's what I've wanted, and I'm gonna take it.  ...
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It took me 7 years to finish Bleach for the official series to misgender my 2nd favorite character

Yes you are reading that right, I started watching mainline Bleach  in 2017-18 before...ummm... everything you know me for now? Before @'ing Synders & Gatorade on Insta (real day 1's remember) I was still on about season 3 and was still watching completely alone slumped out on my couch with the lights off, I was a very sheltered child.  You can take that however you want to, it makes no difference to me, but Bleach  sort of broke the ceiling for me and showed me a new full fledged expansive universe approach to media I was generally unfamiliar with at the time.  As everyone did, struggling through the Bount Arc left me bored with the show, and around this time was when I had started picking up music as a hobby while watching other Long-Form animes such as S.A.O., JJBA (which I've yet to finish), G.G.O. (Because I include both forms), Seven Deadly Sins, a little bit of Fairytale (longer, deep rooted personal lore), Hikaru No Go (s/o Calvin), and Akame Ga Kill....
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An RX8 SE3P, Twitter Horses, and repressed envy that will write killer dariacore if acted upon

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Great news, PC still not repaired, but I know what must be done to do so, so enough with that. In the vast amount of time I've had between feigning PC diagnostics and not being at work (yes, I'm not a total neet ಠ⁠ ⁠೧⁠ ⁠ಠ), Ive finally started tapping into my game backlog!  This includes the likes of Shin Megami Tensei 4, Halo CE, MGS2, Pokemon Omega Ruby, Jet Set Radio Future, and Tokyo Extreme Racer 3, emphasis being on TXR... While it's not hard to win me with a racing game for obvious reasons, I found it particularly interesting not solely because of how the game presents itself, but more of how it does so in the grand scheme of its competition.  TXR came up alongside PS2 classics like NFSU, Juiced, SRS (meh) and Auto Modellista (for another time!), an already varied market where NFS reigned supreme with the now synonymous aesthetic of first 2nd & first gen console and 2000's tuning scene.  Where TXR shines however, is that its only goal is to sell you o...
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